Can’t help but wonder

Make no mistake, this song is not CC singing. I’ve made mistake made mistakes and lived through so much that I’m “a ghost when I walk in, Holy spirit when I  walk out”..

Is this what we’re doing here?  Because I’d really like to understand. Run me til I don’t want, luv, or respect you?

No, this song is one I wish was sung to me. With love poured out instead of hate; visceral instead of venomous. Like you.

🎧♥ CC

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 There is a scene in that silly movie Bruce Almighty, a scene that probably no one will remember, where Grace is sobbing in her bed and praying ‘God please help me let him go, please help me let him go’… She missed him in bed with her,  after he had be such a d**k to her, living it up, taking her for granted and …..and CC wants you to know that if you too ever find yourself in that place….you can just walk over and shake her hand 

Doc~umentaries 💊

CC has always had a love for medicine. Not many people know this and CC has never really pursued it. Probably because she feels like this about test taking -> 😖😔

But this Saint James School of Medicine keeps popping up so randomly, with open houses in beautiful locations in the city. Although CC is not
sure how it found her…it is inspiring….

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Med school options in Bonaire and Anguilla, no MCAT required, school next to unpolluted beaches and tranquility.

So many things can be done there.
And to be honest, who knows what the city still even holds for her?

CC is not sure she can save lives, but help heal them…. Who would think?  😷🎥

Johnny Cash: Open your mouth… Open your mouth…
June Carter: No… I don’t trust you…
Johnny Cash: Oh, June don’t say that…
June Carter: I don’t…
Johnny Cash: Yes, you do… now open your mouth…
[June opens her mouth, but John snatches away the peanut from her again]
June Carter: [hits John ] John, you are a mean man! You’re a mean man, and I knew it… I knew it all along..

June Carter: Ya’ll can’t walk no line.

 

~walk the line

💗CC

RASHAD: What kind of name is New New, anyway?

NEWNEW: I’m New New cause I always rock the new… new sh⋆t. Thank you.

RASHAD: Well, I heard you and you homegirls don’t buy none of that new… new sh☀t.

NEWNEW: Whatever.

basketball life

What does love, in your heart, mean to you? Perfection, or realness? Thank u to the responders. Lol. Basketball was my metaphor, for Inspiration..Sometimes it happens in a moment & you forget people can see. So no, I dont ask for a ‘performer ‘..only my superstar who shows me the way.. who puts his best in the world and with me even though its not easy, if that makes sense? Thk u for reading

What is love anyway?

Cc was in love with a police officer once. And he lovvvvved her.. And she loved tall, handsome OfficerCrab 👮🏽 deeply too. Sadly, even though it seemed perfect it didn’t work out. Maybe sometimes..Anyway, in this life’s court, PapaCrab will be the leading scorer.. Playing offense for us maybe if that’s who he is.. as long as he could just be, be himself..for CC to run with, keep him well, with little things, and in her heart…
And everything I am and everything I’ve done… was meant to love creatively, and patiently.. So that in those times when he’s weary or at rest or helping me win…
CC has done her part to make sure the home team stays fly. goodnite~🏀🌺

5 Things…random thoughts for today

5…CC doesn’t appreciate when people use the Bible to justify selfish motives and hateful thoughts. It’s like someone drank a tall cup of judgment and just spit out some scripture. Not cool. But how do you say that to your friend?

bflies4…Was ~relax, relate, release ~ not the best advice ever?

3…Can we discuss this R. Kelly and those leather pants/leggings?

2. CC wonders if you have ever felt it is possible to not be alone soemtimes, but still feel lonely

..however..

1. I am alive today to write this…with someone, somewhere alive and well enough to read it..and for that I am thankful

CC


true luv is when we’re finding sensuality in all we do together
being ourselves no effort or judgement
Desire plus Action in a watercolor dreamteam
I tried to paint u…guess my colors weren’t beautiful enough
This is what I want
~CC

 

When MotherCrab is Right….Mamacita is finally happy that I am listening to her. She wants me to do it her way. ‘Picket fence’ I am reminded. As she pointed out, its not like my way is the best way. Hearts are foolish. Ok Ma. V. good advice, lol……She is right that any woman would die for that. I’m sure alot are. So wish CC luck later. I may let her win.

Moonchild

Sometimes when the moon is full CC starts to miss the people she loves the most. One of them is her pumpkin Alex 🙇

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When we get to see each other he is like my shadow….. so I remember the time when he was half baby- half l’il man.. the sky was clear, and I was able to see the man in the moon, the ‘face’…I said ‘Alex, can u see it??’..At first he did the usual smart mouth ‘yeah right’, but then he stopped and said ‘whoooooooa Auntie, I see it!!!’ I don’t care how big he ever gets, that was one of the best little Alex lovebites ever. If you can see it tonight, it’s beautiful❤ CC